I Hate Friday Nights

Everyone looks forward to Friday nights when all things slow down and everything’s so bearable.

Me? I have a love-hate thing with Friday nights.

I love Fridays because it means two whole days off from work. But who wants days off when you’ll surely be spending every minute thinking about lost loves, could-have-beens and what-ifs. I hate Friday nights for this kind of drama.

I love Friday nights because I can stay up all night and never worry about being late for work. I hate Friday nights for making me stay at home coz I got no other place to go.

Friday nights are for you. Why can I not spend it with you?

Senti Mode Muna...

When everyone's gone, I find myself wonder on where my life is heading.

I don't have things to look forward to. Either I am content with my life or I lost interest on it altogether, I have no idea.

So now, I find myself looking for adventure. I may have missed the fun along life's way. I am trying to catch up, no matter how far away it has left me. Somehow, I'll find a way to cheat time.

But still I am afraid to move on, I'm afraid to make wrong decisions and end up wishing things are back to where I was: single, alone and not-so-happy.

Am I not ready give my space up yet?

I envy those who are inlove, even those who are inlove with love. Because I am neither. I am here standing at the crossroads but I don't feel anything. I am just here - devoid of any feeling.