My So-called Life

Thoughts of a thirtyish with a mind and outlook of a teener.

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Location: Marikina City, Philippines

I am an angel and the devil, all at the same time. Because of that there's a raging battle inside of me. But I could only have one worst enemy - MYSELF.

Monday, April 25, 2005

Video (A Song by India Aria)

I liked this song the first time I heard it. My sentiments, actually, India Aria.... Sorry I had to change India Aria to Pauline.

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India Arie - Video

Sometimes I shave my legs and sometimes I don't
Sometimes I comb my hair and sometimes I won't
Depend on how the wind blows
I might even paint my toes
It really just depends on whatever feels good in my soul
I'm not the average girl from your video and
I ain't built like a supermodel
But, I Learned to love myself unconditionally
Because I am a queen
I'm not the average girl from your video
My worth is not determined by the price of my clothes
No matter what I'm wearing
I will always be Pauline
When I look in the mirror the only one there is me
Every freckle on my face is where it's supposed to be
And I know our creator didn't make no mistakes on me
My feet, my thighs, my lips, my eyes I'm lovin' what I see
I'm not the average girl from your video and
I ain't built like a supermodel
But, I Learned to love myself unconditionally
Because I am a queen I'm not the average girl from your video
My worth is not determined by the price of my clothes
No matter what I'm wearing I will always be Pauline
Am I less of a lady If I don't wear panty hoes?
My mama said ain't what she wears but, what she knows
But, I've drawn a conclusion, it's all and illusion confusions the name of the game
A misconception, a vast deception
Something's gotta change
Don't be offended this is all my opinion ain't nothing that I'm sayin law
This is a true confession of a life learned lesson
I was sent here to share wit ya'll
So get in where you fit in go on and shine
Free your mind, nows the time
Put your salt on the shelf
Go head and love yourself
Cuz everything's gonna be all right
I'm not the average girl from your video and
I ain't built like a supermodel
But, I Learned to love myself unconditionally
Because I am a queen
I'm not the average girl from your video
My worth is not determined by the price of my clothes
No matter what I'm wearing I will always be Pauline
Keep your fancy drinks and your expensive minks
I don't need that to have a good time
Keep your expensive car and your Caviar
All I need is my guitar Keep your krystyle and your pistol
I'd rather have a pretty piece of Crystal
Don't need your silly comb I can find my own
What God gave me is just fine
I'm not the average girl from your video and
I ain't built like a supermodel
But, I Learned to love myself unconditionally
Because I am a queen
I'm not the average girl from your video
My worth is not determined by the price of my clothes
No matter what I'm wearing
I will always be Pauline

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

We Have A Pope!!!

We have been blessed by the election of a new Pope today.

VIVA IL PAPA!!!

Sunday, April 17, 2005

Our Place

Do you and your friends have a favorite place? We do! We love the place so much that we regularly hang out in the place. It's one of the places where you can sit for hours and no one will ask you to leave. hehehehe.... No, we don't own the place. They have lots of customers but it's one of the nice places where you can sit and do your stuff.

Anyways, me and my friend Jack were playing with her digital camera this weekend and we managed to get some decent photos. See the cube? Yup, we designated a particular table for our usual after-gym pigout. Yup, a corner cube by the window. Ideal for lovers, actually. We always talk about bringing our mates there.... hahahha.... Talk about wishes, we're both single. Hey, we love each other.... so we have to make do with each other's company. Right Jack?


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It was Jack's idea to frame our faces with the place's name (printed on the cups). I like the inclined photo of Jack. I also like her pose. Yup, taken by none other than photographer extraordinaire Pauline. Photographer's services can be arranged, hehehhehe...

If you happen to be in the place, why don't you come up and say hi? We always could use a third wheel, just kidding. Anyways, come and check out the place. You'll see what I mean. ;-)

Saturday, April 16, 2005

21 Things I Want in a Lover (Alanis Morissette)

21 Things I Want in a Lover

do you derive joy when someone else succeeds?
do you not play dirty when engaged in competition?
do you have a big intellectual capacity but know
that it alone does not equate wisdom?
do you see everything as an illusion?
but enjoy it even though you are not of it?
are you both masculine and feminine?
politically aware?
and don't believe in capital punishment?
these are 21 things that I want in a lover
not necessarily needs but qualities that I prefer
do you derive joy from diving in and seeing
that loving someone can actually feel like freedom?
are you funny? à la self-deprecating?
like adventure? and have many formedopinions?
these are 21 things that I want in a lover
not necessarily needs but qualities that I prefer
I figure I can describe it since I have a choice in the matter
these are 21 things I choose to choose in a lover
I'm in no hurry I could wait forever
I'm in no rush cuz I like being solo
there are no worries and certainly no pressure
in the meantime I'll live like there's no tomorrow
are you uninhibited in bed? more than three times a week?
up for being experimental?
are you athletic? are you thriving in a job that helps your brother?
are you not addicted?

...curious and communicative...

Thursday, April 14, 2005

Ideal???

I can't shake the lethargic mood I'm having so I thought of posting this one. Somehow my mood lightened but not for long...

Your Seduction Style: Ideal Lover
You seduce people by tapping into their dreams and desires.And because of this sensitivity, you can be the ideal lover for anyone you seek.You are a shapeshifter - bringing romance, adventure, spirituality to relationships.It all depends on who your with, and what their vision of a perfect relationship is.

Just getting the Ideal rating makes me all the more sad. :-(

Hmmm... am I I-D-E-A-L?

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

Ultimate Ahhhh...


This song just keeps me going... I love this song sooo much!!!

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Only Wanna Be With You
(hootie & the blowfish)

You and me
We come from different worlds
You like to laugh at me
When I look at other girls
Sometimes you're crazy
And you wonder why I'm such a baby
Cause the Dolphins make me cry

Chorus:

Well there's nothing I can do I only wanna be with you
You can call me your fool
Only wanna be with you
Put on a little Dylan sitting on a fence
I say that line is great
You ask me what I meant by
Said I shot a man named Gray
Took his wife to Italy
She inherited a million bucks
And when she died it came to me
I can't help it if I'm lucky
Only wanna be with you
Ain't Bobby so cool
Only wanna be with you

(Solo)
Yeah I'm tangled up in blue
Only wanna be with you
You can call me your fool
Only wanna be with you
Sometimes I wonder
If it will ever end
You get so mad at me
When I go out with my friends
Sometimes you're crazy
And you wonder why I'm such a baby yeah
The Dolphins make me cry
Well there's nothing I can do
Only wanna be with you
You can call me your fool
Only wanna be with you
Yeah I'm tangled up in blue
Only wanna be with you

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

My Day

It's 7am.

I am in a kind of "senti" mood at the moment. I can't exactly tell why. Funny how I wanted to write down all my thoughts but is scared to have people read them. And I would only bare my soul to a choice few.

Anyways, at the moment this is all I can tell. Maybe soon when I am well and ready I'll write about it and we'll all have a good laugh over it. For now, let me just keep it all inside. Soon, soon...

I had a difficult day. I know, I promised to write only about happy moments. I guess, happy moments are not for me. I'd like to believe that they will be soon. ;-)

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Thanks to all the people who started visiting my blog. I just can't tell you how grateful I am. God bless us all!!!

Thursday, April 07, 2005

Star Wars Fever...

I'm dying to see the last installment of the Star Wars movies.

For now, I'd like to say that I am a Jedi! hehehehe....


:: how jedi are you? ::


Well, I believe I'm intrinsically good....

Com'on, take the challenge. Let me know who you turnout to be, okay?

Monday, April 04, 2005

More Photos from Puerto Galera

I still can't post the photos from Baguio City and the ones from the True Faith concert. Decided to post more of the galera pics on grid.


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I wish my friend Jack will not have trouble uploading the pics this week. We were both sad when her PC wouldn't do any uploading from the digital camera.

I'm excited to post the pics. And I have lots of stories about that True Faith concert last March 31st. I want the pictures posted with my artik. hehehehe...

Friday, April 01, 2005

Ladies' Night Out

March 31st concert of Mojofly and True Faith at Atchie's Bar.

Went there with 3 of my girl friends - Ms. Tonette, Kcatie and Jackie.


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Kinda fiery? Yup, exact word I'd used to describe a very good concert. Had a great time, had a chance to holler without anyone having to know why. I'm relieved.